Slacker!

Oh my what a slacker I have become this whole last year on my blog!  I can't believe I didn't even make one single post in the month of March.  Shame, shame on me!!!!!

So you are probably wondering what in the world the boys look like since it has been FOREVER since I have posted any photos of them.  I guess that is one of the draw backs of having moved closer to family...not as urgent to update the good old blog, eh?

Both of them have decided they don't like having their picture taken this last year.  These are the kind of shots I get now when I say, "Let me take a picture."

But hey, these days I will take anything.  They are growing so freaking fast it is making my head spin.

So what have I been doing with all my time?  A lot of it has been spent outside these days.  Working like crazy on the yard and just being outside with the boys...who would live out there if I allowed them to.  That is the question I hear from the time they wake up until they go to bed each night, "Can we go outside?"  I am REALLY missing having a fence!  Although today I had something I HAD to get done so I let them play in the back yard while I sat right at the door finishing it.  I could hear and see them but wasn't actually out there...I felt so guilty! 

Still attempting to get this house unpacked but I am afraid it won't happen until over the summer.  Sigh.  It stresses me out but I am finally at a place where I just keep telling myself, one step at a time.  I have to keep repeating that over and over again.  It's tough being the only one doing it and trying to take care of a family and all.  So much crap stuff to go through and I just get overwhelmed.  I'll get there!

Both of the boys go to different schools and of course not even on the same schedule.  So I spend a lot of time in my car.  I don't know how people with kids that are enrolled in 50 activities do it.  I feel like we are always in the car going somewhere.  Crazy.  I don't think I would mind so much if it came together a little better but we have these chunks of time where it's too far to go home but too long to just go to the next place and wait.  Annoying.  I guess I better get used to it.  Need to take up knitting again.  :)

So that's been pretty much my last several months.  Happy to have warmer weather arriving so we can get outside.  Being couped up this last winter was NOT fun for any of us.  It was way worse here than in Indy...WAY worse.

Seriously?

Come on, seriously?  One post for the month of October!!!!!!  Okay, shame on me.  I have let the good old blog fall by the wayside since we ventured into this move at the beginning of the summer.  But I will be back!!!!  I have been struck with lots of inspiration these last several weeks and am planning so many fun adventures for the new year.  Hopefully December too! 

One of my ideas was trying to figure out if I want to post a different topic each day of the week.  I know there are lots of good blogs out there (one of my favorite blogs) that do this and I think it would help me to be more focused and organized.  Hmm...any thoughts?

As we were driving along yesterday Cameron, out of the blue, said he wanted to move back to our old house in Indiana.  It just breaks my heart over and over again.  He has been talking about this a lot these days.  That and our dog, Indy.  I think this move has been much harder on him than everyone has realized.  That may be why we have been experiencing such a hard time with him these days (another reason for my bloggy absence).  I am hoping with the holidays and him getting to see his grandparents more this will help.  He is really such a sensitive little guy and these things really do more to him than I think.  Wish I knew exactly what to do to make it better!  I did suggest we send a Christmas present to our puppy back in Indiana.  I am sure the gal who has him now will not mind...she has been sweet about letting me know how he is doing thankfully.

So, hope you all have a great Thanksgiving.  We are lucky to now be within driving distance from my husband's family so we get to go and spend time with family this year...and I don't have to cook (or clean house)!  So for that I am very thankful!

I have decided I may brave the Black Friday crowds after all this year.  I am SO NOT a Black Friday kind of girl.  But there are a few things I want to pick up at such incredible prices so it may be worth it (one of them for me!).  The boys haven't gotten into video games yet but they are going to have a Leapster II for $25...I would be crazy not to get the thing!  Even if I wait a while to give them to the boys I would be silly not to get them if I can.  Maybe I'll just stay up the entire night instead of sleeping seeing as several places are actually opening up on Thanksgiving night!

Look what I've got...

Pictures! Can you believe it!?!?!?!!??? Finally got the regular computer hooked up and downloaded pictures tonight. Well, I was forced to. The memory card was finally full on my camera (now that I am taking pictures again...woo-hoo!) so of course it was time.

Looking back from the pictures these last few months brought all kinds of crazy emotions back.

I should be happy when I see this one (the "SOLD" sign out front), but I'm not. I am missing my old house right now. The organized (well, was after we put it on the market), crazy thing. I think I am missing all the memories it holds for me with the boys. Although the new one I am sure will be filled with many, many more in the coming years it is just in such a state of chaos for us at the moment I am finding myself just wanting to be outside or away from it a lot lately. It'll get there eventually! Still have some brooding over this left to do I guess.

The good news is we are getting out and meeting new people and doing things. And of course school is just around the corner for the boys. Routine! Yippee!

Yikes! Just noticed what time it was. Need to get myself into bed but will post some of my favorites from the beach tomorrow. Got some cute ones of the boys and M. Excited to be getting back into the swing of things again. Yippee!!!!

Sensory issues

Dealing with children who have sensory issues is not always easy. A lot of the time people (including their parents) don't understand or "get" them. It makes it tough all the way around. Now don't get me wrong, I am no way complaining about my children's "problems" but I am learning. Learning that no matter how hard I try some days just aren't good ones. For me or for them. Today was one of those days...

It started off with the fact that we have all been sick around here this last week. I thought when Cameron had a stuffy nose it was just allergies but by the end of the week when myself and M started feeling bad I knew it was a summer cold. Yuck. Just yuck. Of course Noah had gotten it as well a few days prior but the only sign he shows is crankiness. And that is not an unusual symptom for him.

Well, this afternoon we decided to go out for lunch because my house still looks like a disaster zone from moving (at this rate I don't think it will ever get finished). Noah was cranky but I didn't think too much of it. We got into the car and at this point anything (and I mean ANYTHING) Cameron touched he wanted. It made no difference what it was, he just wanted it because Cameron had it. This has been happening often these days. Almost as if he is just doing it to see if he can get his way at times is the feeling I get. So I told him no, and just took it (a cup) away from both - and truth be known I threatened to throw it out the window and if that wasn't considered littering I would have!).

We get to the place we plan on eating and I tell M to go on in with Cameron and I'll deal with Noah. Strike a deal with Noah that seemed to calm him down well enough to get him in the door. While we are ordering he spots the cookies on the counter. Oh my...here we go again. The whole way to the table and while waiting for lunch he goes on and on about he wants a cookie. No. Not until you have your lunch.

Now at this point you are probably thinking that is a normal behavior for a 3.5 year old. Yes, I agree. But what isn't normal is that he continues this endlessly and when I am holding him he tells me to let him go. So I put him on his chair and he crawls back into my lap only to tell me to let him go. I put him back on his chair and he tells me no, pick him up. I pick him up and he tells me to let him go. I stand him on the floor next to his chair and he crawls back into my lap and tells me to let him go. You getting the picture here?

So this goes on until Cameron points out there is a video game behind us and he wants to play. Oh, that opens a while new can of worms. Ugh! Can someone shoot me right now??????? Please????? Pretty please?????? So we move on to he wants to play the game. This goes on between the game and the cookie until the food gets here.

Now in my brain during all of this I keep trying to convince myself that this is "normal" behavior for a 3.5 year old when they are hungry, tired and not feeling well. But in my heart I know it isn't. At that moment, when he was sitting in my lap crying for the game and holding his hands over his ears I knew it wasn't. I have had this feeling a few other times. I keep trying to convince myself that I am just over reacting. That he is fine, he is just stubborn. Other people tell me he is just stubborn. I just have that same feeling I always have that something isn't right. That I need to help him in some way I am not qualified to and people just look at me like I'm some kind of nut when I tell them these things.

I will say the older he is getting the more other people are seeing it. It was painfully obvious to me this last week when they went to summer camp. Seeing him react and then seeing how other kids reacted to the same situation I just knew I need to do something more for him. He needs to have help to be able to cope with things that are beyond his control. His teachers even noticed that he is a little more sensitive, etc. at this summer camp. And the fact that he is a twin and they of course compare him to Cameron is not a good thing. They are so totally opposite and there is no way they should be compared.

So, my conclusion from all of this tonight. It was a very good thing to have them separated in January for school. If they never have to be in the same classroom again I will be happy.

Second, I am coming to hate summer. Thank goodness when they get a little older I will have the opportunity to put them in year round schooling (praying we are still here at that time!). At least with the year round thing their breaks are so much shorter between and we won't have as long to get all our of whack.

And third, I feel helpless right now. I know he needs something (they both do actually) and I am feeling stretched beyond my limits and I need to focus on them right now. Screw the house and everything else. BUT...the house is part of what is causing such stress for both of them right now. The move has totally thrown them (and me, who am I kidding). So do I work like a crazy person to get this place unpacked or just keep spending the time with them and deal with the house later? I just can't seem to get both done. Again, I feel helpless!

I will get it all done and we will survive this. I just hate days like today when I feel like I am not doing all I possibly can for my children. It breaks my heart and makes me just want to cry. So that's it for me tonight...tomorrow is a new day and I will wake up refreshed and ready for it!

And what happened to the last 2 months?

Wow. I don't know any other word to use. Wow. The last few weeks have been this amazing whirlwind of activity. We put our house on the market the Friday before Memorial Day. Of course we had no showings that weekend. I was thankful to be honest because we just were not quite ready yet. But Monday night we got the call we would be having our first showing. Well, we had several showings that week and by the following Tues or Wed we had an offer. I could NOT believe it. I had been praying all along that we sell the house quickly so that M and I wouldn't have to be separated for too long. I knew it would be really tough on the boys to have to stay here while M went on to NC. Just was not looking forward to that one. But in an amazingly short amount of time we sold the house. I am still in shock I think. I guess it won't be real until next week when we close and I will be homeless.

So we headed to NC last week to try and find a new house to call home. That was an interesting experience. Full of ups and downs. I think Wed afternoon was the absolute worst for me. Everything just hit within an hour. We had made an offer on a house the night before and had figured out it just wasn't going to work. They wanted more than we were willing to spend on it and so I felt like we were back at square one. It was a horrible feeling.

Then, I got the inspection report from our realtor here in IN and I misread one of the things they wanted repaired. You see, M had installed out water softener. Now I had full confidence in his abilities to do this. BUT...he casually mentioned on our way to NC that if they found anything it would be with the water softener. What? So he tells me that it may not be up to code. What? He said if they had any problems with it we would just take it with us then. What? Crap, crap, crap was all I could think. I wasn't mentally prepared for all of this so it really threw me. And I don't do well when thrown a huge curve ball like that.

Anyhoo, we still don't exactly know what they are talking about. The inspector said he was not able to find a ground for our copper piping. They told me it was the main lines and not the water softener. I of course have a call in to the builder but haven't heard back yet. Will start the bugging process if I don't hear back from them by tomorrow. This has me a wee stressed out. But trying very hard not to. Just go with it I keep telling myself. It will all work out. Look at what has so far!!!!!!! Just go with it...

Oh how sad!

I just looked at my poor blog and realized I only had 1 post for the entire month of May! OMG I don't think I have been away from the blog for that long since the boys came along! Been getting the house ready to go on the market and spending every possible minute working on it. BUT...it is FINALLY on the market. It's been a week now. Trying to be patient but that is SO hard I have to admit. We had 4 showings this week and one of them stayed over the time they were supposed to be here. I know it will all work out and happen when it is supposed to but man it is had waiting!

The boys are getting so big! We were lucky enough to have their Papaw visit this last week. He was here on business but we were able to see him 3 days in a row! Now Cameron asks if it is a "Papaw day today" nearly every day at some point. So very, very sweet!

I also have to say the boys are 3.5 and showing it. One is a sassy little thing and the other has decided he likes to push and hit. Lovely. Tonight Cameron told M that he wasn't going to be his daddy for much longer. Oh my. I didn't think they talked like that until they were teenagers! Someone should have warned me about that one. I know it hurt M's feelings tremendously but I try to realize Cameron is 3 and I don't think he really fully understands what he is saying. He is mad and that is what he knows. So now how to teach him to be more constructive with both the anger and the words?????

Haven't downloaded pictures from my camera in weeks. Heck, I think I even went weeks without taking a single picture! So much for the Project 365 this year. I knew I should have gone with the digital version! Oh well...I think selling a house and moving qualifies for a good excuse of not doing that project this year. Can I just say selling a house is on of the most stressful things I have ever done in my entire life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But I will attempt to get the pictures off my camera soon and onto my blog...where they belong once again.

Hope everyone in blogging land is doing fabulous...will have to catch up on everyone's blogs very, very soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Long time, no blog

Oh my, I can't believe it has been nearly month since I have blogged! I should be in serious withdrawal but to be honest I'm not. I mean, I miss all my bloggy friends and seeing what is up with everyone all the time but it is for a good reason that I am MIA for a little while. And no, I am so not preggo!

We have decided to move back to where M is from. It was a tough decision on some fronts but an easy one on others. I have always wanted my children to grow up near relatives (I didn't) and so we have decided it is what we want to do. Strangely enough hubby found a job about 2 hours away from his family and we decided to go for it. Man, getting the house ready AGAIN to sell is NOT fun! I have been working my rear off the last few weeks and still am not there yet.

But, it will all be worth it in the end. Am purging like crazy! Had a garage sale the other day and made way more than I ever thought I would. Still have a ton left and going through getting rid of more. I have not been able to really go through our stuff since when I was pregnant with the boys...over 3 years ago! We have a lot of stuff that just needs to go. Furniture, because we know we will not be in a house even close to this size, is the main one.

So that brings me to a bloggy question. We have this computer armour thingy. It is bulky and awkward and heavy. M doesn't really care for it, and I am to the point of hating it after moving around a room this evening like 6 times because it just didn't look good where I put it each time.

Now I am pondering, do I sell it or take it apart and use it for other things? The doors would make really cute chalkboard/magnet things for the boy's rooms or even a headboard for our room for the time being. I have contemplated chopping the thing in half and trying to make some kind of table or bench. I feel bad destroying (in a sense) a perfectly good piece of furniture. I know I could sell it but it would be for next to nothing. So what to do? What do your guys think?

More decisions...

Decisions. I know I have talked about them before on this blog. Man is it tough at times. Right now we are trying to make a major decision and all I want to do is take some time to stop thinking about it and analyzing. I know what I want to do but have to figure out how to make it happen. In a lot of ways I guess it can be viewed as a step back but for me it will be a huge step forward. Something I can give my children that I wish I would have had. So, with all that being said, I can't share until we make the final decision. Sorry for the tease but had to get that off my chest!

It has been a beautiful day but chilly. The boys wanted to play outside so badly but it was just too cold and windy. Man is it windy here. Shocks me every time. But Spring is almost fully here and we get to be outside once again so I won't complain about a few chilly days. We still had fun today!

So I was reading my usual list of blogs today and came across this post. Of course I had to go and see what mine was so off I went. And guess what? I am within my average weight! I can't believe it. I still weigh more than I did before I had the boys but at least I have been able to lose a little these last few months. Now if I could just keep going. The only real thing I have been doing is watching how large my portions are. Nothing else. In fact, I haven't even been able to make it to the gym since the boy's schedule changed in January. You would think losing a little weight would motivate me to get myself back in there. Just so, so busy and the last thing on my mind at the end of the day is exercise. I know, I know, excuses. But at the moment my sanity is worth having a few extra pounds. :)

Today would have been my dad's birthday. I always miss him but his birthday is one of those days I am just kind of sad and REALLY miss him. It's so hard for me to believe he's gone at times. I just want to pick up the phone and give him a call. I just tried to keep myself busy today and enjoy time with hubby and the kiddos and even did some cleaning out of the garage. How's that for keeping myself busy?

On a happier note, we have been able to spend a lot of time outside this last week. Yippee! Sunshine is a wonderful thing. Hoping for some more great weather this next week so we can do much of the same! I'll leave you with one of my favorite photos from this week. :)

I did it!

I am so freaking excited I can hardly stand it. I just finished our 2008 book! Yes, I know, I am a year behind but I finished it. Well, almost. I still have to go back and proof each page but it is all there. Yippee! I am so very excited. Now I have to get started on 2009...maybe I can actually have that finished before 2011. Ha!

I am feeling a lot better but still don't have much of a voice. Yuck. Very hard when you have two little three year olds running around. I'll survive. But man I wish this would just go away for good. Vertigo is really not fun AT ALL! But at least I have something for the nausea so that hasn't been nearly as bad this time around.

Still so much I need to update here but am tired and heading to bed soon. I was just so excited I had to share it with someone!

Happy New Year!

I did it! I finished adding the photos for my Project 365 blog this evening. If I didn't feel so bad I would spend the next hour looking back over them but I feel terrible again and am heading to bed.

Nearly a three weeks now fighting vertigo and ear stuff. He told me this week if it doesn't clear up I will have to go to the ENT and probably have tubes put in my ears. I thought they only did that for children!

Can't believe it is 2010. So much to talk about and so little time. I'll be back though when I am feeling a bit better and can manage to keep my head from spinning.

Blessed

I am really and truly blessed. Lucky, whatever you want to call it. I call it blessed. I have had so many sweet moments with the boys this last week I can hardly recall all of them at the moment. One of the ones that truly stands out to me is the other night I was putting Cameron to bed. He has really started to love having us read his Bible to him every night before bed (a while back I got them their own Children's Bibles) and it is really something that makes me feel so very blessed every time he asks for it. We read it for a while and then he falls asleep, usually with it open, a while later. I love this picture every night when I go in.

But that is not the sweet moment I had with him the other night. We were reading about Zacchaeus and I told him I knew a song about Zacchaeus and asked if he wanted me to sing it to him. He, of course since he LOVES music of any kind, said yes. So after I sang that several times he asked for another "Bible song" over and over again until I had exhausted every "Bible song" I knew.

Then last night when M and I were going to bed he told me that the night before when he had Cameron on the changing table Cameron said "I am God and you are Jesus." It cracked me up of course. He has really been into pretending he is other people, things or animals these days. So this statement caught me way by surprise. And I couldn't help but fall asleep being thankful last night for a little guy that is already, at the age of nearly 3, wanting to learn so much about God.

Changes ahead

I don't know if I am ready for this. We are going to move the boys into their own rooms this next weekend/week. I have been going back and forth in my head as to if I should put them in toddler beds at the same time. You know, just get it all over at once. Hmm...

When I first started asking the boys about sleeping in their own rooms they both said yes. But now, that I have explained it a little further Cameron is saying no, he wants to sleep with Noah. One night he even went so far as to say he wanted to sleep in Noah's bed. Hmm...

So am I crazy for doing this? Cameron is the one who can sleep through anything (he gets that honestly from me I think, I even slept through a fire one time as a kid with everyone running around screaming "fire"). Noah on the other hand. He is provoked by Cameron but then get so wound up and can't fall asleep. Once asleep all is well. But man, some nights he will lay in there for an hour and chatter away. Hmm...

My hope is that not only will this give each of them their own space and help each to sleep better, but also to give me some more one-on-one time with them. Allowing me to cuddle with Noah when he needs the extra time without feeling like I am short changing Cameron. It is truly a "monkey see, monkey do" craziness around here these days and I always feel so guilty when Noah is having a rough time and I hold him and Cameron stays in his bed. I have taken to picking each one up and rocking them while I read a few books. That way they both get a turn. But some nights this just isn't enough for Noah. So hoping that by separating them it will help this as well as the initial getting wound up. Hmm...am I crazy for doing this now?

Things the boys said today that made me crack up: We were driving along and I noticed Noah's head down like he may be asleep so I said, "Noah are you awake?" His response..."No." Then later in the afternoon shortly after Cameron's meltdown (or maybe it was during), I said "Everything for you has been so tragic today." To which Cameron exclaimed in a tearful voice, "I am not tragic!" I had to walk away from the car (I was putting him in his car seat at the time) because I was laughing so hard and he was crying. I didn't want him to see me laughing at what he had said.

I can't get over the fact the boys will be three in just two months. It still shocks me every time I think about it.

I was sick for for a few days and still not back to 100%, although I am so thankful to be feeling better! I was reading a blog last night (and I wish I could remember which one) but it mentioned that as a twin parent you often find yourself asking the "What if" and the "If only" questions a lot when you have multiples.

I have found myself asking this a lot the last almost 3 years and have felt much guilt over this. The author went on to say that instead of asking yourself these questions why not count your blessings. Instead of asking "If only I had one baby I could spend so much more time with just them and life would be so much easier because we would have just one to deal with." Why not say "How exciting our life is because we have two beautiful children to share this life with and they have each other."

So today, in the midst of all the craziness I found myself really and truly enjoying my children and playing with them. The housework could wait, heck, everything else could wait. I wanted to savour that moment and truly study my children in these sheer moments of happiness. Oh my what a difference it made in my day. Now I just have to think about this every day and remind myself how truly blessed I am to have twins. I have always lived by the philosophy (He never gives you anything you can't handle" but I will say these last three years have been very trying in so many different ways. Ways I never imagined. I guess that is called growing.

This and that...

Sitting here downloading pictures while the boys are kind of napping. I have taken to driving them around in the car until they fall asleep and then coming home and putting them in bed. Or at least that is what I tried today. Noah is awake, Cameron is asleep. Yesterday I sat in my car for 30 minutes while they slept. Guess I should have done the same thing today. Oh well...they so need the nap still but so don't want to take it! We are finding our groove again though.

Love yoga. Need I say more on that topic?

Joining my first ever book club I think. How fun! Not sure what to expect. Does that sound silly or what?

My eight hours...

So in my lovely eight hours each week that the boys are in "school" I am supposed to get the house cleaned (top to bottom mind you including dusting, vacuuming, laundry, ceiling fans, blinds, etc), clean out the garage and the house (closets and all), walk the dog, water the yard, go to the grocery store, workout, doctor's appointments and any other errands there may be to do. Hmm, you add it up...ya think I can get all that done in eight hours? I can't get it all done in the entire week much less in eight hours (which in reality is about seven and a half once you factor in drive time and stuff).

It really is becoming annoying to me that whenever something comes up it automatically falls into the "you can do it while the boys are at school" category. Grr. Okay, that was my rant. I'm done. I did however manage to take care of several things today while they were at school that have been on my "to do" list for some time now. Woo-hoo!

Is that the paparazzi?

I came across this word today and thought it was funny...Mom-a-raz-zi. Kind of like a paparazzi but a mom who runs around stalking their kids taking pictures. Hmm...that would be me. Hopefully some day they will thank me for it. This has become Cameron's face whenever he sees me coming with the camera.

So today I decided Cameron was going to learn how to have quiet time if it killed me. He has decided if he doesn't want to be in his bed he will start screaming. I call it scream talking, not really screaming but not really talking, kind of a mix of the two. The last few days of it I have gone in and attempted to get him to be quiet. Today I decided to take a lesson from the cry it out method and let him scream it out. Praying it works! He did it for what felt like FOREVER, which in reality was probably more like five minutes. He stopped and when I finally went in a few minutes ago he was snoozing away.

I know he still needs a nap. He is GROUCHY when he doesn't take one. So we'll see what happens over the next few weeks. Still praying this is all a phase because they really do need that nap to get them through the day. I would much rather move their bed time later if I have to than deal with the little crazy boys I have had the last two weeks from lack of sleep.

So now I am downloading the 169 pictures I took the last two days and doing laundry. Fun, fun. But thankful I am able to do that and praying for happy little boys when they wake. :)

I have truly come to realize that motherhood is not for the faint of heart. It has been over a week now since the boys have taken a nap and I am so at a loss of what to do all day long. Before we played hard in the morning and in the afternoon because they got all rested up at nap time. Now I am searching for the balance yet again. If we play too hard they are exhausted and cranky. If we don't play hard enough they start fighting with one another. Hmm, must learn to be a preschool teacher or something because those gals got it going on. They keep those little ones just busy enough with quiet times sprinkled throughout. Just can't seem to get anything accomplished around the house because I spend every minute it seems entertaining the kiddos. I know, I know, it will get better and I will figure it out. Just in time for them to change on me again I am sure. :)

So, this past week has been interesting. We have done a lot of stuff we probably wouldn't have done otherwise if they had been napping. But I know I can't do this every day of every week. So now we have to find a new routine and fast. Our old bed time is slowly creeping earlier and earlier. They are falling asleep in the car if we drive anywhere in the late afternoon so I know they are exhausted. Just refusing to nap in their beds. So what else can I do? They have quiet time in their beds for at least an hour and that's about it. I do wonder if this is a phase or if it is a permanent thing. I guess I am dreaming that it may be a phase. Ha! Oh how I am missing those naps already!

My sweet little one brought me flowers tonight. Hubby and Cameron came home with a beautiful bouquet of flowers this evening after a particularly hard dinner out with Noah. We (Noah and I ) came home while Cameron and M went to look at plants like I had promised Cameron we would do after dinner. It was a wonderful surprise and much needed cheering up for me. In kind of a fun the last few days. I am sure it has a lot to do with the feelings from trying to readjust the boys' schedules. Sigh.

Roller coasters

That is what I feel like I am on. A huge roller coaster at times. This last week was tough. No other way to put it. The boys were way out of sorts and just cranky. So of course I was cranky. The beginning of the week was horrible. Just plain horrible. It did get better. The weekend was a little tough but we survived. I am still scratching my head trying to figure out what in the world is going on with them. Noah won't sleep for anything again. There is always something going on when he does this. And it always seems to take me a while to figure it out. Haven't so far. Can't see any new teeth. He is eating well and acting fine other than antagonizing his brother half the day.

I am beginning to wonder if I need to really find a way to spend some serious one on one time with them each week. The tough part about that is I can't seem to leave one and not the other or maybe I should say to take one and not the other. The one left behind usually throws a fit. Cameron is also going through some serious separation anxiety issues at the moment. So what's a mom to do?

We went to the fair this morning. Just a smaller local one. They had a ball but of course Noah was really ready to go just a little ways into it while Cameron was NOT wanting to leave and started to throw a fit. It is just becoming increasingly difficult to find the balance between the two. I know we will get there but I want what is best for both of my children and myself and at the moment it has been very difficult to find a happy medium for everyone involved. Daddy included.

So back to the fair. The boys got to pet baby chicks, a goat, pigs, cows, sheep, and llamas. It was very interesting for me too seeing as I am a "city girl" and haven't really ever been around animals myself. I think the boys are much more brave than I am when it comes to touching the animals. It didn't help they had signs all over the place saying the animals may bite. That kind of freaked me out. And of course Cameron has no fear so just walks right in and jams his hand in their faces. To be 2.5 years old again! Noah loved it and we could tell by his squeals (literally) of delight. He was very gentle with all the animals. We have actually if often wondered aloud if he would grow up to be a vet. I guess only time will tell.

Wow. Been way too long since I have blogged. Been trying to play catch up on my 365 blog since we were out of town for a while. I wrote my posts each day in a notebook and had to transfer them over. Now to pick out all the pictures to go with it and post them all. At times it seems like so much work but it is SO worth it when I sit and read the posts from each day. Really a fun idea and I do hope to continue this next year as well.

We went to an Arts Festival today. The boys had a ball and didn't want to come home. They loved all the stuff to look at and the music. Noah even graced us with some dancing to "Smooth Operator." That was pretty funny and if I recall I even caught it on video. Too cute to pass up.

Trying to decide on a new computer. As much as I want to make my laptop limp along it is just SO slow. Not sure what is up with it and I had it looked at about a month ago. They said all was well and ran some stuff on it that was supposed to make it run faster. Not really. I am considering a new desktop instead. Not sure what to do. Just don't want to shell out the money at the moment for one. If they weren't so freaking expensive I would have bought a new one by now! Well, at least the one I really want is expensive. Then you have to get new software because the stuff I have won't work on Vista. And of course all the stuff about Vista people talk about. Hmm...too many choices! Wouldn't it just be easier for someone to tell me what to buy?????? Wishful thinking on my part I guess. Ha!