Where oh where is Fall? Please send it our way. Please. I am longing for cooler days we can spend the entire day outside and just enjoy being there. No worries. And the boys are getting their play set next week so even more reason to have those cooler temps roll this way! I think I am more excited than they are. Seriously. I have wanted to get them on for over 2 years now. First we waited because of the move to Indy, then we waited because we had no grass in the back yard (mud all the time because of attempting to grow the grass), then we waited because we were contemplating moving, and finally we moved. Just praying we are HERE for a very LONG time. They will hopefully be thrilled on Wednesday when they come home from school. Now I have to figure out how to keep them out of the way while the people finiah installing the thing once they do come home. Hmm...may have to take them somewhere after school...
Saturday, September 18, 2010
Saturday, September 11, 2010
Picture day!
I hardly ever have my picture taken. EVER. I am always the one behind the camera. Every once in a while I am lucky enough someone grabs the camera and I get a shot I love. Or am at least happy with. :) When hubby took the piture he immediately told me it was a good one. And yep, I had to agree. I love Noah's expression and that little puppy he faithfully carries. And I am going to attempt to at least take a picture of me with the boys once a month just so when they get older they really do know they had a mom. :)
Thursday, September 2, 2010
First day of school 2010...
Noah had his first day of school today and Cameron last week. I can't believe how big they are getting! I was looking through some pictures last night from their very first day just two years ago when they went to "school." Wow have they changed SO, SO much!
With the boys both off to school this morning I thought I was giong to get so much done. NOT. Well, I did get a lot done but not looking like much around the house. I took the doors off the hinges for our laundry area. This was driving me INSANE! To have three doors in that tiny of a space was a crime. I dreaded doing laundry just because I didn't want to fight with the doors!
I also did some serious planning on where pieces of funriture need to go, took some measurements to see if they were going to fit where I wanted them to go and then did some more planning. Most worked, one would not based on measuring. Blah! Will need hubby to help me move the furniture. Too many bug pieces to move around and my body just can't take it anymore.
We have discovered two cracks in two different rooms along the ceiling. So took some pictures to document that and also had to do some pictures of the boys' mattresses (possibly having them replaced by the company). Do you know how hard it is to take pictures of a white ceiling? Especially with a zoom lense? I know, I know, I should have switched the lens out but it takes so much better photos than my other one. Must get a new every day lens! So, after contorting my bosy in all kinds of ways while laying on the floor to attempt to get decent photos for future documentation I think I finally have a few that will work. Lovely.
The only thing I did today that actually showed any physical evidence was laundry, moving some things from the dining room that need to be gone through and either put away or taken care of and changing sheets on beds. Ugh! Pitiful display.
So why is this bothering me? I think just having the house is such a state of disarray has really been bothering us all. It makes me feel tense and like I just don't want to be here at the house. So maybe that is why I have been wanting to work on the yard so much...to escape. But I am determined that now that I will have a few hours a couple days a week I am GOING to get this done. It may take me the next six months but I will get this house back to being presentable and comfortable again. And my latest plan involves possibly sticking everything in one room and uncovering a little each and every day. Just so the rest of the house is peaceful again. Sound like a crazy plan? Am I going to hate myself later for doing this?
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Look what I've got...
Pictures! Can you believe it!?!?!?!!??? Finally got the regular computer hooked up and downloaded pictures tonight. Well, I was forced to. The memory card was finally full on my camera (now that I am taking pictures again...woo-hoo!) so of course it was time.
Looking back from the pictures these last few months brought all kinds of crazy emotions back.
I should be happy when I see this one (the "SOLD" sign out front), but I'm not. I am missing my old house right now. The organized (well, was after we put it on the market), crazy thing. I think I am missing all the memories it holds for me with the boys. Although the new one I am sure will be filled with many, many more in the coming years it is just in such a state of chaos for us at the moment I am finding myself just wanting to be outside or away from it a lot lately. It'll get there eventually! Still have some brooding over this left to do I guess.
The good news is we are getting out and meeting new people and doing things. And of course school is just around the corner for the boys. Routine! Yippee!
Yikes! Just noticed what time it was. Need to get myself into bed but will post some of my favorites from the beach tomorrow. Got some cute ones of the boys and M. Excited to be getting back into the swing of things again. Yippee!!!!
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Sensory issues
Dealing with children who have sensory issues is not always easy. A lot of the time people (including their parents) don't understand or "get" them. It makes it tough all the way around. Now don't get me wrong, I am no way complaining about my children's "problems" but I am learning. Learning that no matter how hard I try some days just aren't good ones. For me or for them. Today was one of those days...
It started off with the fact that we have all been sick around here this last week. I thought when Cameron had a stuffy nose it was just allergies but by the end of the week when myself and M started feeling bad I knew it was a summer cold. Yuck. Just yuck. Of course Noah had gotten it as well a few days prior but the only sign he shows is crankiness. And that is not an unusual symptom for him.
Well, this afternoon we decided to go out for lunch because my house still looks like a disaster zone from moving (at this rate I don't think it will ever get finished). Noah was cranky but I didn't think too much of it. We got into the car and at this point anything (and I mean ANYTHING) Cameron touched he wanted. It made no difference what it was, he just wanted it because Cameron had it. This has been happening often these days. Almost as if he is just doing it to see if he can get his way at times is the feeling I get. So I told him no, and just took it (a cup) away from both - and truth be known I threatened to throw it out the window and if that wasn't considered littering I would have!).
We get to the place we plan on eating and I tell M to go on in with Cameron and I'll deal with Noah. Strike a deal with Noah that seemed to calm him down well enough to get him in the door. While we are ordering he spots the cookies on the counter. Oh my...here we go again. The whole way to the table and while waiting for lunch he goes on and on about he wants a cookie. No. Not until you have your lunch.
Now at this point you are probably thinking that is a normal behavior for a 3.5 year old. Yes, I agree. But what isn't normal is that he continues this endlessly and when I am holding him he tells me to let him go. So I put him on his chair and he crawls back into my lap only to tell me to let him go. I put him back on his chair and he tells me no, pick him up. I pick him up and he tells me to let him go. I stand him on the floor next to his chair and he crawls back into my lap and tells me to let him go. You getting the picture here?
So this goes on until Cameron points out there is a video game behind us and he wants to play. Oh, that opens a while new can of worms. Ugh! Can someone shoot me right now??????? Please????? Pretty please?????? So we move on to he wants to play the game. This goes on between the game and the cookie until the food gets here.
Now in my brain during all of this I keep trying to convince myself that this is "normal" behavior for a 3.5 year old when they are hungry, tired and not feeling well. But in my heart I know it isn't. At that moment, when he was sitting in my lap crying for the game and holding his hands over his ears I knew it wasn't. I have had this feeling a few other times. I keep trying to convince myself that I am just over reacting. That he is fine, he is just stubborn. Other people tell me he is just stubborn. I just have that same feeling I always have that something isn't right. That I need to help him in some way I am not qualified to and people just look at me like I'm some kind of nut when I tell them these things.
I will say the older he is getting the more other people are seeing it. It was painfully obvious to me this last week when they went to summer camp. Seeing him react and then seeing how other kids reacted to the same situation I just knew I need to do something more for him. He needs to have help to be able to cope with things that are beyond his control. His teachers even noticed that he is a little more sensitive, etc. at this summer camp. And the fact that he is a twin and they of course compare him to Cameron is not a good thing. They are so totally opposite and there is no way they should be compared.
So, my conclusion from all of this tonight. It was a very good thing to have them separated in January for school. If they never have to be in the same classroom again I will be happy.
Second, I am coming to hate summer. Thank goodness when they get a little older I will have the opportunity to put them in year round schooling (praying we are still here at that time!). At least with the year round thing their breaks are so much shorter between and we won't have as long to get all our of whack.
And third, I feel helpless right now. I know he needs something (they both do actually) and I am feeling stretched beyond my limits and I need to focus on them right now. Screw the house and everything else. BUT...the house is part of what is causing such stress for both of them right now. The move has totally thrown them (and me, who am I kidding). So do I work like a crazy person to get this place unpacked or just keep spending the time with them and deal with the house later? I just can't seem to get both done. Again, I feel helpless!
I will get it all done and we will survive this. I just hate days like today when I feel like I am not doing all I possibly can for my children. It breaks my heart and makes me just want to cry. So that's it for me tonight...tomorrow is a new day and I will wake up refreshed and ready for it!
It started off with the fact that we have all been sick around here this last week. I thought when Cameron had a stuffy nose it was just allergies but by the end of the week when myself and M started feeling bad I knew it was a summer cold. Yuck. Just yuck. Of course Noah had gotten it as well a few days prior but the only sign he shows is crankiness. And that is not an unusual symptom for him.
Well, this afternoon we decided to go out for lunch because my house still looks like a disaster zone from moving (at this rate I don't think it will ever get finished). Noah was cranky but I didn't think too much of it. We got into the car and at this point anything (and I mean ANYTHING) Cameron touched he wanted. It made no difference what it was, he just wanted it because Cameron had it. This has been happening often these days. Almost as if he is just doing it to see if he can get his way at times is the feeling I get. So I told him no, and just took it (a cup) away from both - and truth be known I threatened to throw it out the window and if that wasn't considered littering I would have!).
We get to the place we plan on eating and I tell M to go on in with Cameron and I'll deal with Noah. Strike a deal with Noah that seemed to calm him down well enough to get him in the door. While we are ordering he spots the cookies on the counter. Oh my...here we go again. The whole way to the table and while waiting for lunch he goes on and on about he wants a cookie. No. Not until you have your lunch.
Now at this point you are probably thinking that is a normal behavior for a 3.5 year old. Yes, I agree. But what isn't normal is that he continues this endlessly and when I am holding him he tells me to let him go. So I put him on his chair and he crawls back into my lap only to tell me to let him go. I put him back on his chair and he tells me no, pick him up. I pick him up and he tells me to let him go. I stand him on the floor next to his chair and he crawls back into my lap and tells me to let him go. You getting the picture here?
So this goes on until Cameron points out there is a video game behind us and he wants to play. Oh, that opens a while new can of worms. Ugh! Can someone shoot me right now??????? Please????? Pretty please?????? So we move on to he wants to play the game. This goes on between the game and the cookie until the food gets here.
Now in my brain during all of this I keep trying to convince myself that this is "normal" behavior for a 3.5 year old when they are hungry, tired and not feeling well. But in my heart I know it isn't. At that moment, when he was sitting in my lap crying for the game and holding his hands over his ears I knew it wasn't. I have had this feeling a few other times. I keep trying to convince myself that I am just over reacting. That he is fine, he is just stubborn. Other people tell me he is just stubborn. I just have that same feeling I always have that something isn't right. That I need to help him in some way I am not qualified to and people just look at me like I'm some kind of nut when I tell them these things.
I will say the older he is getting the more other people are seeing it. It was painfully obvious to me this last week when they went to summer camp. Seeing him react and then seeing how other kids reacted to the same situation I just knew I need to do something more for him. He needs to have help to be able to cope with things that are beyond his control. His teachers even noticed that he is a little more sensitive, etc. at this summer camp. And the fact that he is a twin and they of course compare him to Cameron is not a good thing. They are so totally opposite and there is no way they should be compared.
So, my conclusion from all of this tonight. It was a very good thing to have them separated in January for school. If they never have to be in the same classroom again I will be happy.
Second, I am coming to hate summer. Thank goodness when they get a little older I will have the opportunity to put them in year round schooling (praying we are still here at that time!). At least with the year round thing their breaks are so much shorter between and we won't have as long to get all our of whack.
And third, I feel helpless right now. I know he needs something (they both do actually) and I am feeling stretched beyond my limits and I need to focus on them right now. Screw the house and everything else. BUT...the house is part of what is causing such stress for both of them right now. The move has totally thrown them (and me, who am I kidding). So do I work like a crazy person to get this place unpacked or just keep spending the time with them and deal with the house later? I just can't seem to get both done. Again, I feel helpless!
I will get it all done and we will survive this. I just hate days like today when I feel like I am not doing all I possibly can for my children. It breaks my heart and makes me just want to cry. So that's it for me tonight...tomorrow is a new day and I will wake up refreshed and ready for it!
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Just random rambling
I got brave today. I took the boys to a little Italian place for lunch...all by myself. Nothing to distract them, just a cozy little mom and pop place. And they did great! After that I decided to push my luck with a trip to Home Depot...their rooms need ceiling fans and I wanted them to be part of the process in picking them out. I had found these really cute ones there and had to get them while they still had 2 in stock! Will have to post a photo after we get them in, they are pretty cool for little ones.
Unpacking is coming along VERY SLOWLY! I can't even find my iron yet. Sigh. We will get there...I think it is just wearing on us all. Ready to have a life again. Beginning to feel like I have done nothing for 2010 but get ready to move...and it's already August!
Trying to get the boys situated with a new preschool. Praying the school system here is faster than what they have been so far. Just need to know what their schedule will be and what we are looking at because once again Noah will be in the public school system more than likely and Cameron will be in a private preschool. Still kicking myself every time I think about this and how wonderful the set up was going to be in Indy. I know, I know...don't look back. But the unknown is KILLING me on this. My poor little guys have been through enough...I just want to protect them and prepare them as best I can...they need this right now.
I think I may have found a way to get some pictures off my camera for the time being. Woo-hoo! Will have to try another day though...I'm beat and heading to bed!
Unpacking is coming along VERY SLOWLY! I can't even find my iron yet. Sigh. We will get there...I think it is just wearing on us all. Ready to have a life again. Beginning to feel like I have done nothing for 2010 but get ready to move...and it's already August!
Trying to get the boys situated with a new preschool. Praying the school system here is faster than what they have been so far. Just need to know what their schedule will be and what we are looking at because once again Noah will be in the public school system more than likely and Cameron will be in a private preschool. Still kicking myself every time I think about this and how wonderful the set up was going to be in Indy. I know, I know...don't look back. But the unknown is KILLING me on this. My poor little guys have been through enough...I just want to protect them and prepare them as best I can...they need this right now.
I think I may have found a way to get some pictures off my camera for the time being. Woo-hoo! Will have to try another day though...I'm beat and heading to bed!
Monday, July 26, 2010
To school or not to school?
"Imagination is more important than knowledge." - Einstein
I love this quote. I have really been struggling these last several months about what to do concerning preschool for the boys. You read and hear so many mixed things. I think the boys benefit from the social aspect so I do feel they should go a few days a week. But I also feel I should be teaching them more at home. They thrive off routine and if I could just figure out a good routine and find some great "teaching" activities I think we would be okay. I would also be lying if I didn't admit the few hours a week to get a few things accomplished sans kids is a wonderful thing too. ;)
Here lately the thought of how different life would be with only one child at a time has crossed my mind often. I hate when I get in those sorts of moods. I LOVE being a twin mom and wouldn't trade it for anything (well, most days that is). Don't get me wrong. I just find myself from time to time thinking of all the fun things I could have done with them if they were born at different times. Like the a few days last week when Cameron wanted to go to the pool swimming but Noah didn't. What do you do? It's 100 degrees out so it's not like I can tell Noah that he can just play by the pool then if he doesn't feel like swimming. It is usually Cameron that wants to do something and Noah doesn't. Sometimes I push and have him tag along anyway but I find myself more often giving in and feel that Cameron is losing out.
But then I always try to think about all the fun things we get to do because they were born at the same time. And it has been amazing to experience the world through their eyes at the same time. They both see such different aspects of things. So I am blessed beyond belief to have them. Just having a hard time finding a balance because of how extremely different they are. Even just their energy levels! Noah tires so much more easily while Cameron just can't seem to burn off enough energy.
I guess it's things like this that make me think they would do better in an actual preschool. Before we found out we were having twins I had this crazy idea in my head of homeschooling. I haven't totally given up on the idea but I am just not certain I can really meet their needs. Am I crazy?
I love this quote. I have really been struggling these last several months about what to do concerning preschool for the boys. You read and hear so many mixed things. I think the boys benefit from the social aspect so I do feel they should go a few days a week. But I also feel I should be teaching them more at home. They thrive off routine and if I could just figure out a good routine and find some great "teaching" activities I think we would be okay. I would also be lying if I didn't admit the few hours a week to get a few things accomplished sans kids is a wonderful thing too. ;)
Here lately the thought of how different life would be with only one child at a time has crossed my mind often. I hate when I get in those sorts of moods. I LOVE being a twin mom and wouldn't trade it for anything (well, most days that is). Don't get me wrong. I just find myself from time to time thinking of all the fun things I could have done with them if they were born at different times. Like the a few days last week when Cameron wanted to go to the pool swimming but Noah didn't. What do you do? It's 100 degrees out so it's not like I can tell Noah that he can just play by the pool then if he doesn't feel like swimming. It is usually Cameron that wants to do something and Noah doesn't. Sometimes I push and have him tag along anyway but I find myself more often giving in and feel that Cameron is losing out.
But then I always try to think about all the fun things we get to do because they were born at the same time. And it has been amazing to experience the world through their eyes at the same time. They both see such different aspects of things. So I am blessed beyond belief to have them. Just having a hard time finding a balance because of how extremely different they are. Even just their energy levels! Noah tires so much more easily while Cameron just can't seem to burn off enough energy.
I guess it's things like this that make me think they would do better in an actual preschool. Before we found out we were having twins I had this crazy idea in my head of homeschooling. I haven't totally given up on the idea but I am just not certain I can really meet their needs. Am I crazy?
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