It really should be Sunday

I have felt a day off for the last several days now. Oh well, guess I will get back on track at some point next week.

Okay, Noah has started calling Cameron "Pain." Not sure if this is actually what he was saying in the beginning but that is what it sounded like. When I would ask him he would stop saying it. Then I would ask Cameron what Noah was saying and he would just look at me like I was crazy or something. Like, don't you understand?

Well, today Cameron started not liking him calling him "Pain." Anytime Noah would say it Cameron would come back with the pouty face and say, "I am not Pain." So that would make Noah say it even more. They crack me up. No idea where all the stubbornness comes from. Hmm...

The rooms are going well so far. Tomorrow night will make a week. Still haven't taken any pictures. They feel so empty to me. Have to get several things for both of their rooms and I have to put some stuff up on the wall. I let them both pick out what they wanted as the "theme" for their rooms. Surprise, they both picked cars, boats, trains and airplanes. Go figure. So I found a cute lamp at Target and this I guess will be my starting point. I got some canvases the other day and want to attempt painting them with their names to hang. Not really sure if I can paint or not but have wanted to attempt this for a while now.

We put up the tree today. The boys were funny. They loved hanging the bulbs and actually did a very good job with the help of their daddy picking them up to reach the higher spots. I just want to capture every moment on film or video but know I can't. I wonder at times if they will ever look at the thousands of pictures or videos I have taken. I know I often wish I had more of my past saved.

Blessed

I am really and truly blessed. Lucky, whatever you want to call it. I call it blessed. I have had so many sweet moments with the boys this last week I can hardly recall all of them at the moment. One of the ones that truly stands out to me is the other night I was putting Cameron to bed. He has really started to love having us read his Bible to him every night before bed (a while back I got them their own Children's Bibles) and it is really something that makes me feel so very blessed every time he asks for it. We read it for a while and then he falls asleep, usually with it open, a while later. I love this picture every night when I go in.

But that is not the sweet moment I had with him the other night. We were reading about Zacchaeus and I told him I knew a song about Zacchaeus and asked if he wanted me to sing it to him. He, of course since he LOVES music of any kind, said yes. So after I sang that several times he asked for another "Bible song" over and over again until I had exhausted every "Bible song" I knew.

Then last night when M and I were going to bed he told me that the night before when he had Cameron on the changing table Cameron said "I am God and you are Jesus." It cracked me up of course. He has really been into pretending he is other people, things or animals these days. So this statement caught me way by surprise. And I couldn't help but fall asleep being thankful last night for a little guy that is already, at the age of nearly 3, wanting to learn so much about God.

Quick update on the new rooms

I am beyond tired tonight so need to get to bed but feel I have neglected my poor blog enough these days. We switched the boys to their own rooms on Sunday night. So far so good. I think they are both really going to enjoy it. I also have to remember to tell you about Noah's nick name for Cameron. It is pretty funny and I am afraid it may stick! Will do so when I am actually awake though. Must remember to take pictures tomorrow!

Changes ahead

I don't know if I am ready for this. We are going to move the boys into their own rooms this next weekend/week. I have been going back and forth in my head as to if I should put them in toddler beds at the same time. You know, just get it all over at once. Hmm...

When I first started asking the boys about sleeping in their own rooms they both said yes. But now, that I have explained it a little further Cameron is saying no, he wants to sleep with Noah. One night he even went so far as to say he wanted to sleep in Noah's bed. Hmm...

So am I crazy for doing this? Cameron is the one who can sleep through anything (he gets that honestly from me I think, I even slept through a fire one time as a kid with everyone running around screaming "fire"). Noah on the other hand. He is provoked by Cameron but then get so wound up and can't fall asleep. Once asleep all is well. But man, some nights he will lay in there for an hour and chatter away. Hmm...

My hope is that not only will this give each of them their own space and help each to sleep better, but also to give me some more one-on-one time with them. Allowing me to cuddle with Noah when he needs the extra time without feeling like I am short changing Cameron. It is truly a "monkey see, monkey do" craziness around here these days and I always feel so guilty when Noah is having a rough time and I hold him and Cameron stays in his bed. I have taken to picking each one up and rocking them while I read a few books. That way they both get a turn. But some nights this just isn't enough for Noah. So hoping that by separating them it will help this as well as the initial getting wound up. Hmm...am I crazy for doing this now?

Sick kiddos

The boys have been sick and grouchy. So that means I have been tired and grouchy. But we are getting through it. Noah is off the steroids (had croup) and so hopefully within the next 3-4 days will be back to his old self. Man, this going to bed at 11:00 pm is not a good thing! Attempting to wear them out today though. I really want to get the post I mentioned before posted soon. So must have some time to compile my thoughts!

Mama said there'd be days like this...

Something went wonky with my blog today so until I can figure out how to fix it (which may be a while at my pace these days) it will just have to stay simple. Hmm, not sure what happened but it had some wacky colors for the background, etc. Missing my old header and such already!

Today was one of those days that was just full of mixed feelings and emotions. One moment all was going well and the next it was all falling apart. Great example...we had gone to story time at the library and they had fun and we even got to see some friends we haven't seen in a while (added bonus!). After we went and the boys wanted to look at books and then they spotted the computer. I can't keep them away from those things when we are there. They did fine and all playing on the thing it was just when they were wearing the headphones they would get a wee bit loud (although I shouldn't have minded as someone else had a screaming kid the entire time so I shouldn't have felt bad about them talking loudly I guess). So after a while I decided it was time to go. Enough computer.

Noah was okay with it, Cameron however was not. And he let me know. Every. Step. Of. The. Way. He has started this new thing that when he doesn't want to go somewhere he will lay down on the ground and not get up and walk. Oh my. Usually I just go with it and say whatever and make it into a game. But today just wasn't in the cards. So I picked him up kicking and screaming and carried him to the car. Noah was a perfect little child through all of this, which that in itself is very surprising. He used to join in as well. I think he takes after me. Anytime there was conflict in my family I would become super well behaved or when I got older, start cleaning for some reason. I was joking about this with the boy's OT and she said it was my way of "organizing" myself. Go figure.

So, we get in the car and Cameron is still doing the ear piercing scream. I finally get him calmed down and off we go. Everything is just about testing limits right now and two of them doing this at the same time is just wearing me out. I have lost all sanity at this point. Nothing is done anymore without checking at least a dozen times I am going to do or say the same thing these days. It is EXHAUSTING! I seriously don't know how people with lots of kiddos do this. I am losing my mind with just two of them.

Okay, enough whining from me for the day. My pity party is over for now. Tomorrow is a new day and this too shall pass.

I think I jinxed it

The boys got really quiet this afternoon and had been playing nicely together so I knew something was up. They were doing something they shouldn't. This is what I walked in on...

I was thinking to myself yesterday that Noah hasn't been sick in a very long time. And the more I thought of it the more I realized that last year he didn't get sick nearly as much as Cameron and when he did it was almost always with croupe. So what has happened tonight? He has been sleeping restlessly for the last hour or so and I am so afraid he is going to be sick now. Every time I think of something like that it happens. Ugh! I know I jinxed it and now I will have a sick little guy...watch. I will bet money on it I am that confident because I thought this thought yesterday he will get sick soon. Man!

The boys have really been going at each other the last few weeks. I kept praying it was a short lived phase but I am really at a loss as to what to do with them. Any fellow multiple moms out there that have any advice PLEASE let me know! We have tried every option their developmental therapist and books I have read came up with and then some it seems. We have even been trying to give them more one on one time with each of us. I am thinking that seems to have made it worse almost. Today at school Cameron had two time outs, both for sitting on or attempting to bite Noah. Thankfully it is just them doing this to each other but still. I know that when we get the option to separate them in school I will be doing it. No questions asked.

What an amazing and beautiful gift my little ones gave me today. As we were walking they each did something to just melt my heart. Noah ran up to Cameron at one point and wanted to hold his hand while they were walking. Then later one C found a ladybug on the path and he waited (not so patiently I might add) for her to fly up on his hand. He was so proud to carry her nearly all the way home. We thought she had flown away but once home disocvered she must have flown into his jacket because I found her again shortly after we made it back home. He was so sweet and laid on the couch next to her talking to her and jsut wanting to be near her. My child who doens't want anyone to touch him at the moment couldn't get enough of this little ladybug and displayed such sweet compasion and interest. He finally agreed that we could let her go home to her family and friends outside after much, much saying he wanted to hold her. I love to have conversations with my children these days. They are just so stinking cute!