Wow, I can't believe this is the boys 3rd Halloween. It really doesn't feel like it. This is their first year:

This is their second year (couldn't get a shot of them together to save my life!):

And this is this year:

They are getting so big and continue to amaze me every day. They even picked out their own costumes this year! When C decided he wanted to be Batman we said okay. N wouldn't pick out a costume so we went home and decided we would try again another day. While I was playing with the boys C wanted to dress up in his Batman costume so we were all playing and I mentioned Robin and Batman being friends. Immediately N wanted to be Robin. So off to the store we went. It was very cute actually. That night they both put the costumes on and ran around the house and kept calling each other "friend." Makes a mommies heart swell with pride and warm fuzzies!

We had a great time today. The boys got to go to a trunk or treat this morning for my MOPS group and then they got to trick or treat around the neighborhood adn then come home to give out candy. I was shocked that C wanted to go home way before N. N would have kept on going but I finally convinced him we would have so much more fun giving out candy. :)

Friday at last...

Our fun festivities today...

I feel like I have been neglecting both this and my project 365 blogs lately. Although I am posting daily on my other I am not publishing them at the moment simply because I am not having the time to download and go through all the photos. Eeek! And I can only see this getting worse with the holidays quickly approaching.

I have decided to separate the boys and give them each their own rooms. I am thinking this will help with several of the going to bed issues we have been having lately. Also, I realized they are around at least one other person literally 24/7. That has to be tough. They don't have their own space or anywhere to just go when they want to be alone. I have found them both heading upstairs when they just need a few minutes to themselves. Or Cameron will go in another room and if you go in to check on him he tells you to leave (working on him learning to do this politely I might add). I just really think it's time. I have even asked them and they both say yes, they want their own room. However, I am not so sure they understand what this means. It's not like I have oodles of time to make this happen before the holidays so I guess I have more time to ponder how to do this the best way. Thankfully we are blessed with a house large enough to be able to do this for them...so I feel it needs to happen and the sooner the better in my eyes.

Trick or Treat...a little early

These are what I sent to the boy's class today for special treats for the kiddos. I am such a geeky mom. I love doing stuff like this and wish I had more time for it. Yes, I will want to be one of those home room moms that loves to do stuff for the class. I just hope I don't embarrass my kiddos too much!

I have a post I started a while back and am on the fence about posting. I don't want to offend but it came from my heart and it is just what I am dealing with at the moment. I had been reading another multiple mom's blog and I just sat and wrote, and wrote and wrote some more after reading it. Being a twin mom is all I know. I don't know what it is like to have one child at a time and some days I have really longed to know what that feels like...and I have felt much guilt over having those feelings. So maybe I will post it soon. Just still on the fence.

Things the boys said today that made me crack up: We were driving along and I noticed Noah's head down like he may be asleep so I said, "Noah are you awake?" His response..."No." Then later in the afternoon shortly after Cameron's meltdown (or maybe it was during), I said "Everything for you has been so tragic today." To which Cameron exclaimed in a tearful voice, "I am not tragic!" I had to walk away from the car (I was putting him in his car seat at the time) because I was laughing so hard and he was crying. I didn't want him to see me laughing at what he had said.

I can't get over the fact the boys will be three in just two months. It still shocks me every time I think about it.

I was sick for for a few days and still not back to 100%, although I am so thankful to be feeling better! I was reading a blog last night (and I wish I could remember which one) but it mentioned that as a twin parent you often find yourself asking the "What if" and the "If only" questions a lot when you have multiples.

I have found myself asking this a lot the last almost 3 years and have felt much guilt over this. The author went on to say that instead of asking yourself these questions why not count your blessings. Instead of asking "If only I had one baby I could spend so much more time with just them and life would be so much easier because we would have just one to deal with." Why not say "How exciting our life is because we have two beautiful children to share this life with and they have each other."

So today, in the midst of all the craziness I found myself really and truly enjoying my children and playing with them. The housework could wait, heck, everything else could wait. I wanted to savour that moment and truly study my children in these sheer moments of happiness. Oh my what a difference it made in my day. Now I just have to think about this every day and remind myself how truly blessed I am to have twins. I have always lived by the philosophy (He never gives you anything you can't handle" but I will say these last three years have been very trying in so many different ways. Ways I never imagined. I guess that is called growing.

They asked and asked

Oh my what an interesting day! The boys wanted Daddy all morning but he had to work. They miss him so very much and when he is here they want to spend every minute with him. Makes my heart ache when he is away or is not able to spend the time with them they so desperately desire.

In an effort to distract them I was going to take them to "run some errands" this afternoon. Really just get out of the house and hope they fell asleep for just a little while in the car. I went and filled the car up with gas and it is near a place they go from time to time to play for a few hours when I have an appointment or stuff. Drop in child care. They asked over and over and over again to go so I finally just said, okay, if you really want to go. So the boys spent their afternoon there.

I was kind of in shock all afternoon. I didn't know what to do with myself. I came home and cleaned and then sat and watched some shows I have had on DVR for like 3 weeks. DVR is filling up so I have to get busy watching these things or delete them. I am so not a TV watcher. So I like to be able to watch 2 or 3 shows at a time and just fast forward through all the commercials. Thank goodness for whoever invented DVR! And tomorrow they go to PDO so I will be able to get more cleaning done and possibly some organizing as well. This is such a very strange feeling. Is this what I am going to feel when they start school for real? I kind of feel lost to be honest. Strange. Very strange.

I will say this though. It is pretty cool they are actually WANTING to go places now instead of just wanting to stay "at home" with me all the time. Opens all kinds of new doors for us!

Be careful what you say...

The boys rocking out.

Once again this afternoon it was proven to me that you have to be really careful what you say in front of my children. Cameron had fallen from the couch and M had gone over and picked him up before I got over there. Of course I have to check him out and make sure he is okay and I kept asking him questions and finally my hubby said rather huffily "Here, you just take him." Um, that sounded mad to me so I of course got huffy back and said something about him being "pissy." Of course Cameron looks at his dad and says "Dad, you all pissy?" I had to hold my head down and laugh hysterically while I was putting on my shoes. What else can you do? Just praying he doesn't use that word again...especially at school!

Potty says here we come!

Well, I think we may be officially on the road to potty training Cameron. The last few days he has asked about going potty and wanting to sit on the potty. So we did this several times both yesterday and today. This evening after their bath he asked to get out and said he needed to go potty and sure enough he did! Woo-hoo! Yes, I know, I shouldn't get too excited but hey, it's a start. I haven't really done anything with them about potty training other than get them the little ones and let them sit on them when they ask. Not pushing it in the slightest and figured I would know when they are ready. I guess now I need to figure out what I am supposed to do now that one of them is indeed ready. Oh my! Wasn't expecting that one this week!!!!

And strangely enough my best friend's little girl who is just a month older than my boys has also decided she wanted to stop wearing diapers. I thought that was pretty funny today when I read that on her blog and then Cameron did that tonight. See Cathy, we are linked in more ways than we realized!