Hi, ho, hi, ho, it's off to work we go...

Yep, I am officially pondering going back to work.  I guess I should say I am more than pondering.  I am starting to really look into it.  I really wanted to be a stay at home mom all my life.  That is all I really ever wanted.  Maybe I waited too long in life to have children.  I don't know.  But I have thought several times over the last 4 years that I may be a better mother if I actually went back to work.

I can list all kinds of reason why I should go back.  Then of course the main reason for not going back is my children.  It screams at me (yes, the children do too).  Should I really go back?  Should I try and stick it out another year and a half until they go to school?  The sad truth is I would rather be a stay at home mom while they are in school.  I want to be able to do things with their class and be home when they get home.  To capture all those special moments I might otherwise miss. 

So now I am stuck wondering just what I should do.  What if I get a job and then hate it?  Hate being away from my babies after all.  I just never thought I would be one of those moms who actually wants to go back to work.  Sigh.

What happened to all the photos?

Life since moving has really kind of sucked.  Well, not totally but as far as my keeping up with photos of the boys it has.  I didn't realize just how much so until I was looking on my Facebook page at all the pictures from before.  Man there were some cute ones from when we lived in Indiana.  The year I did Project 365.  The year they were both in school for a few hours each week.  Boo.

I did realize this week that part of my reason for lack of picture taking and posting here is that only one of the boys is in school at the moment.  I didn't realize how much I got done in that few hours each week they were both gone.  And I have made a promise to myself to get more sleep (and have been doing fairly well this last year I must say).  So now I have to decide, sleep or capture those beautiful moments?  Hmm...I seriously have to give this some thought.  Right now I am leaning toward giving up the sleep because I am missing looking back on on those photos and remembering those precious moments!  Like these...

So I guess I just need to find a closer spot to keep the good old camera and put aside a few hours each week (I laugh even thinking that thought) for just working on photos.  I have an entire year worth just sitting there waiting for me to go through and do something with.  Sigh...

On a different note, I am hopefully on the road to figuring a few things out when it comes to my kiddos (and myself I might add).  But we'll see how the next few weeks go and I'll do a little more filling in on that topic.  For now I am just trying to take one day at a time and learn to slow down a little.